Monday, December 31, 2007
Time flies so quickly that everything passed in a blink of eyes. Again, New Year is coming just in half a day time. What's your comment on your life in the entire 2007? As for me, I am satisfied and proud that I have finally gone through the year in single life =D yay for me..
Studies~*^work hard and finally obtain this result, proud of myself, but too bad nobody feels proud for me, perhaps they're kind bored or used to it?
Friends~*^has new bestie besides the old buddies =D...luv them loads..muackzz..spent plenty of memorable moments with them, cherish them alot.. =]
Lovelife~*^many things had happened and repeated, finally I am still me. In the upcoming year, I don't wish to believe in any stupid thoughts anymore. About the thingy I had booked, *sigh* maybe it's just a waste of money? and don't give it as present to anyone ba? >.< or keep it to myself as a memory? or straight away don't collect it? lols..
Newyear resolution~*^hoping that life won't be so tiring like 2007, reduce tuition + extra co-curriculars.. =D play hard, yet study smart...please don't messup my life and I will thank ya so much...
Thursday, December 27, 2007
啊!!! >.< 我终于拿了成绩噢!!! 为了那个slip,今天我需要早起床 (9。30应该不早了吧?)。一早就接到很多通电话，全部都问我要穿什么衣服去学校。然后我就跟雯雯，阿爷，大哥和庆杨一起走路去学校。=.= 不懂为何今早我们同样觉得很兴奋和开心，而从来都没感觉到担心或悲伤。我一到学校就看见我的老婆在哭，我开始有点担心因为一直以来她的成绩还不错的哦。为何她的马来文和英语拿不到A呢? 然后我又接到“老爸”(LoKe)的电话。原来他要恭喜我，我感觉到他还比我更兴奋和高兴。本来感到担心的我已经开始平复心情了。当我打给妈妈报告这个好消息时，她只是给了我很普通的反应。我想她应该不会觉得很骄傲或惊奇的。
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
I think today is the day which most of the Form3s feel nervous and worry bout their result, Form4 life and future. And many are making enquiries such as what to wear to school tomorrow, what time to reach school, what’s the plan after taking result, etc… When everyone could not sleep because of their worries bout the result, I also could not sleep but not because of this. I feel kinda sick today--- fever, flu, sore throat. Moreover they keep bothering me with all sorts of questions = = can’t you just let me have a rest ma? Just went to see doctor, and once I reached home, I sat in front of the computer till now… I don’t know why I get sick so easily = = is it because of the rain ma? Or is it because the restaurant was too cold that day? *Sigh*, I don’t know and I don’t wish to think bout the previous days anymore. Perhaps what I wrote on the previous post was totally wrong, I really misunderstood liao gua.. But anyway this thing is not important to me liao since it is none of my business. I know I shall not bother or care so much when you actually don’t even care bout me. So why should I care bout you in return? I don’t wish to tell anyone about this, even if you ask, I still don’t wish to talk. So forget it ba, or let it be ba… I am sick, so is my heart…
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
It was a nice thing, spending the short few hours time with them --- although they are people whom I am not familiar with. How I’d wish to have such a great time with all of my buddies + besties too. But…something unpretendable happened…
Honestly, I don’t know whether I am too sensitive or the truth is actually in front of me. I think I could sense something but my heart keeps telling me not to believe it because what I see might not be the truth. I wanna know more bout this but I told myself not to ask him for the details of this kind of sensitive issue. Perhaps he himself does not know about this also. I told myself not to 胡思乱想, but finally I can’t.. The scenes kept flashing back repeatedly in my mind. I wonder if I really should care about such small thing [perhaps it could be something big? Who knows?].
You always say me this say me that, but everything you complained about me…I think it’s related to someone. You always say people must not compare with others, because everyone has the good qualities and bad ones. I hope I am just too sensitive myself and start thinking of stupid things. But sometimes I really hope you or maybe someone could tell me the truth. I heard of too many lies, and I started to hate that. So don’t make me hate you too, I won’t wish to, never…
I browse through some blogs, reading something that happened to those I care. But coincidently I read through something that I should not. After reading it, I really feel like my heart has torn into pieces. I regretted for reading it, how’d I wish to forget those words that hurt me more than ever. Due to my curiosity, I found out something that I don’t wish to know. I wonder if I don’t know about it forever, is it we will be happy together? Even if I know about it, will it affect the slightest thing? Finally I realised that my 信心 towards myself and you is actually not that high after all.
First love is really that important ma? Keeping in the memory is a good thing but thinking of it most of the time is still a good thing ma? If you really can 放得下, I don’t think such things will still happen. Perhaps to me being bestie is not that way ba, well I am too tired to think of so many things liao. Scold me if you really think that I am too sensitive, I deserve it. I shall let everything sleep before things get worse. Or maybe I shall let go too?
Saturday, December 22, 2007
With fragrant Christmas scents,
Hearts filled with the loving glow
That Christmas represents;
Christmas cookies, turkeys stuffed,
Festive holly berry,
Little faces bright with joy,
Loved ones being merry;
Parties, songs, beribboned gifts,
Silver bells that tinkle,
Christmas trees and ornaments,
Colorful lights that twinkle;
Relatives waiting with open arms
To smile and hug and kiss us;
These are some of the special joys
That come along with Christmas.
[[[hoping that this Christmas of this year will be much better than last year]]]
Sunday, December 16, 2007
Dia termenung di jendela biliknya tanpa menyedari masa pantas berputar. Cuaca mula bertukar warna namun kegelisahan masih kuat merantai tangkai hatinya. Memang sukar baginya untuk menerima sesuatu yang belum pasti miliknya. Ingin diluahkan rasa hatinya namun tiada kata-kata yang terkeluar. Fikirannya yang tidak menentu menjadi batu penghalang untuknya berterus-terang. Akhirnya, segalanya dipendam sendiri dalam pelbagai perasaan yang bercampur baur. Sungguhpun wujudnya kasih yang bercambah subur bersama memori indah yang sukar digambarkan dengan kata-kata, namun segalanya harus berakhir setelah sedar daripada mimpi yang kian melesap.
Usahlah hatimu tersayat pedih mengenangkan kemungkinan yang bakal terjadi. Air mata yang mengalir lesu membasahi pipi gebumu sememangnya tidak berbaloi. Pernahkah mu tanyakan dirimu mengapa senyuman tidak mampu terukir sedangkan perasaan sedih tidak lagi menyelubungi hatimu? Usahlah dibaja benih kasih dengan harapan ia subur segar untuk menniti hari bahagia. Sebenarnya hidup tidak selalunya indah, kadang-kala mu akan diduga. Ketika itu mu memerlukan ketenangan untuk membuat keputusan. Mungkin laut serasi denganmu untuk mencari kedamaian dalam hati yang terguris ini.
Dapatkah segala kekeruhan ini dijernihkan dengan kematangan akal dan fikiran? Keluhan demi keluhan dilepaskan tetapi tiada satu pun yang dapat menenangkan hati dan perasaannya. Barangkali dia tidak larat lagi berfikiran matang buat saat ini. Dia pasrah. Walaubagaimanapun tidak lama lagi, segalanya ajan pulih seperti hari-hari kelmarin yang biasa dilalui. Tanpa kewujudannya, barangkali hidup dapat menjadi ceria dan berwarna-warni semula. Walau apa jua perubahan rentak hidupmu kelak, mu harus senantiasa tabah menghadapinya.