*Picked from Seventeen magazine, January 2009...
I don't have to imagine how I would feel if someone spread a rumour bout me, because I am already experiencing it at this very moment.
Hello, it is only the 4th day of school, and everyone seems gossiping behind me :(
I know the presence of this very new smartie kinda threatens us all. But does everyone NEEDS to be so overreacting over it?
Student #1: You see, the new guy can SURELY beat her result. After all, she is NOT that smart.
Student #2: No lar... You see her result is so good consistently, so I don't think his existence in our school will affect her.
So there are actually two thoughts appear in your mind--- whether he is the one or I am still the one. Blablabla. I hear this since the very first day he came to our class, and the rumours just don't stop until now. I thank You for supporting me all this while. The support you gave is not only "Ah Foong, I support you!"--- yours is not only by words, but also through your actions. As actions always speak louder than words, I know you love me as your best friend :) I am glad that I have you supporting me always.
I believe everyone of you does want to know what is in my mind, isn't it? Alright. I shall tell you. Whether you're thinking if I deserve to be beaten up after my arrogance for years OR I will remain having the so-called title, I'd wish to tell you that I don't bother to compete a single thing with anyone. I. Am. Seriously. Telling. You. That. I. Don't. Wish. To. Compete. With. Anyone. If I say that I don't care bout this rumour, I am obviously lying [If I don't care, why would I write it here right? LOL]. To be honest, he is indeed smart--- I saw it with my own eyes :) And I am actually glad that he came to our school because when there's competition, then only there will be improvement :D
Actually the only thing on my mind now is him, him AND him--- wondering if he enjoyed his mysterious trip, worrying if he is so sick now, blablabla. I have no intention to think about how to study harder to get a better result or to try my best to remain the result, because I am obviously not in mood of it now =Xx. I don't pay attention in classes for this whole week, because I don't think we have to study so soon at this very first week of school [do you agree? xD] LoL, in short, my study mood has not come yet xD!!
And... I told Mum bout this guy--- an obedient, good classmate of mine. And Mum has stopped me from online-ing everyday =.=" But still I on the PC like nobody cares =Xx LOL. The pressure remains in my heart actually--- from Mum [She will never be satisfied with me, as always], and from friends [those who support me]. To accept that they have high expectations on me, I can never relax myself. That's why I have more stress than I supposed to have. That's why I do look older than I supposed to be. That's why I do look miserable when I don't have to.
To be honest, he is indeed smart--- I saw it with my own eyes :) And I am actually glad that he came to our school because when there's competition, then only there will be improvement :D So let's work hard together [perhaps not now yet xD but soon lar~ hehes] to get good result in SPM. Yep, competition is no longer important when there is SPM around the corner xD...
Proving to assholes is not important.
Shutting their mouths up is also unimportant.
Discussing bout this over and over without a conclusion is totally useless.
All I know is that you love me like how I always do.
I appreciate this friendship lots.