得到不一定能长久，
失去不一定不再有。。。
日子平凡地过，
时间慢慢地过，
现在不知不觉地过，
我心里还藏了一个秘密，
一个不能说的秘密，
我不敢说出来，因为我怕我会伤害别人，
我怕某人会将我的秘密告诉别人，
当别人知道了之后，
这会对你我有很大的影响，
我更因我怕受伤，
所以就不敢接受现实，
是，我承认我太自私了。
昨天我收到你的信息。
这是你第一次发给我的华语信息，
第一封那么长的华语信息。
你突然说你相通了，
你说你做错了许多东西，
你说你从来都没有体谅我，
你说你常常为了小事和我吵架，
你说你常让我难过伤心，
你说你不会是个好男友。
但我想告诉你，
你错了。。。
我不是对你彻底地失望，
而是我到现在都依然没有勇气把事实告诉你，
其实我一直都在欺骗自己，
我想了又想，
如果我把这个秘密告诉了他，
他会有什么反应呢?
如果我把这个秘密告诉了你，
你又会怎样做，怎样想我呢?
我们是否能改变现实呢?
我知道我的决定对你我来说都不公平，
责任不该是我留下的理由，
更加重要的是我不该再欺骗我自己，
无论我怎样说服我自己，
我还是需要一个实实在在的理由，
让我能够认真地想一想，
我的决定还是对的吗?
。。。我该怎样做呢?
Broken ♂
Today I have nothing better to do than to stay at home, just take it as the best day to take a rest at home ba.. So I decided to clean up my closet, coz’ these days I have been buying and buying clothes until I have no time to even have a look at my closet now- to decide which to donate, which to keep… And…I saw a piece of clothes of mine, white and pink--- this is what I call it sweet. I remembered when was the last time I wore it, hmm it was months ago--- last year. I remembered clearly what happened that day--- the first day I spent with someone special. I always thought of the happiness we had together, but I just didn’t realize that being with you wasn’t that great after all, we had sadness together, and you almost caused me to burst into tears. However I just put aside that sadness, because I only want the happiness to stay forever in my memories… I very much regretted for the past...
*** Due to some complaints, I enlarged the font in this post. I can't really enlarge the font in the template because it causes the entire blog to look odd =.=" sorry again
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