Friday, May 30, 2008

得到不一定能长久,
失去不一定不再有。。。


日子平凡地过,
时间慢慢地过,
现在不知不觉地过,
我心里还藏了一个秘密,
一个不能说的秘密,
我不敢说出来,因为我怕我会伤害别人,
我怕某人会将我的秘密告诉别人,
当别人知道了之后,
这会对你我有很大的影响,
我更因我怕受伤,
所以就不敢接受现实,
是,我承认我太自私了。

昨天我收到你的信息。
这是你第一次发给我的华语信息,
第一封那么长的华语信息。
你突然说你相通了,
你说你做错了许多东西,
你说你从来都没有体谅我,
你说你常常为了小事和我吵架,
你说你常让我难过伤心,
你说你不会是个好男友。

但我想告诉你,
你错了。。。
我不是对你彻底地失望,
而是我到现在都依然没有勇气把事实告诉你,
其实我一直都在欺骗自己,
我想了又想,
如果我把这个秘密告诉了他,
他会有什么反应呢?
如果我把这个秘密告诉了你,
你又会怎样做,怎样想我呢?
我们是否能改变现实呢?
我知道我的决定对你我来说都不公平,
责任不该是我留下的理由,
更加重要的是我不该再欺骗我自己,
无论我怎样说服我自己,
我还是需要一个实实在在的理由,
让我能够认真地想一想,
我的决定还是对的吗?
。。。我该怎样做呢?

Broken ♂

Today I have nothing better to do than to stay at home, just take it as the best day to take a rest at home ba.. So I decided to clean up my closet, coz’ these days I have been buying and buying clothes until I have no time to even have a look at my closet now- to decide which to donate, which to keep… And…I saw a piece of clothes of mine, white and pink--- this is what I call it sweet. I remembered when was the last time I wore it, hmm it was months ago--- last year. I remembered clearly what happened that day--- the first day I spent with someone special. I always thought of the happiness we had together, but I just didn’t realize that being with you wasn’t that great after all, we had sadness together, and you almost caused me to burst into tears. However I just put aside that sadness, because I only want the happiness to stay forever in my memories… I very much regretted for the past...


*** Due to some complaints, I enlarged the font in this post. I can't really enlarge the font in the template because it causes the entire blog to look odd =.=" sorry again

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