Monday, December 31, 2007



Time flies so quickly that everything passed in a blink of eyes. Again, New Year is coming just in half a day time. What's your comment on your life in the entire 2007? As for me, I am satisfied and proud that I have finally gone through the year in single life =D yay for me..

Studies~*^work hard and finally obtain this result, proud of myself, but too bad nobody feels proud for me, perhaps they're kind bored or used to it?

Friends~*^has new bestie besides the old buddies =D...luv them loads..muackzz..spent plenty of memorable moments with them, cherish them alot.. =]

Lovelife~*^many things had happened and repeated, finally I am still me. In the upcoming year, I don't wish to believe in any stupid thoughts anymore. About the thingy I had booked, *sigh* maybe it's just a waste of money? and don't give it as present to anyone ba? >.< or keep it to myself as a memory? or straight away don't collect it? lols..

Newyear resolution~*^hoping that life won't be so tiring like 2007, reduce tuition + extra co-curriculars.. =D play hard, yet study smart...please don't messup my life and I will thank ya so much...

Thursday, December 27, 2007

aftermath of pmr

2007年 12月 27日 晴

啊!!! >.< 我终于拿了成绩噢!!! 为了那个slip,今天我需要早起床 (9。30应该不早了吧?)。一早就接到很多通电话,全部都问我要穿什么衣服去学校。然后我就跟雯雯,阿爷,大哥和庆杨一起走路去学校。=.= 不懂为何今早我们同样觉得很兴奋和开心,而从来都没感觉到担心或悲伤。我一到学校就看见我的老婆在哭,我开始有点担心因为一直以来她的成绩还不错的哦。为何她的马来文和英语拿不到A呢? 然后我又接到“老爸”(LoKe)的电话。原来他要恭喜我,我感觉到他还比我更兴奋和高兴。本来感到担心的我已经开始平复心情了。当我打给妈妈报告这个好消息时,她只是给了我很普通的反应。我想她应该不会觉得很骄傲或惊奇的。


慧 8.12pm

Wednesday, December 26, 2007

1226 07 -sick

1226 2007, 12.26 noon

I think today is the day which most of the Form3s feel nervous and worry bout their result, Form4 life and future. And many are making enquiries such as what to wear to school tomorrow, what time to reach school, what’s the plan after taking result, etc… When everyone could not sleep because of their worries bout the result, I also could not sleep but not because of this. I feel kinda sick today--- fever, flu, sore throat. Moreover they keep bothering me with all sorts of questions = = can’t you just let me have a rest ma? Just went to see doctor, and once I reached home, I sat in front of the computer till now… I don’t know why I get sick so easily = = is it because of the rain ma? Or is it because the restaurant was too cold that day? *Sigh*, I don’t know and I don’t wish to think bout the previous days anymore. Perhaps what I wrote on the previous post was totally wrong, I really misunderstood liao gua.. But anyway this thing is not important to me liao since it is none of my business. I know I shall not bother or care so much when you actually don’t even care bout me. So why should I care bout you in return? I don’t wish to tell anyone about this, even if you ask, I still don’t wish to talk. So forget it ba, or let it be ba… I am sick, so is my heart…

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

25 12 2007

It was a nice thing, spending the short few hours time with them --- although they are people whom I am not familiar with. How I’d wish to have such a great time with all of my buddies + besties too. But…something unpretendable happened…

Honestly, I don’t know whether I am too sensitive or the truth is actually in front of me. I think I could sense something but my heart keeps telling me not to believe it because what I see might not be the truth. I wanna know more bout this but I told myself not to ask him for the details of this kind of sensitive issue. Perhaps he himself does not know about this also. I told myself not to 胡思乱想, but finally I can’t.. The scenes kept flashing back repeatedly in my mind. I wonder if I really should care about such small thing [perhaps it could be something big? Who knows?].

You always say me this say me that, but everything you complained about me…I think it’s related to someone. You always say people must not compare with others, because everyone has the good qualities and bad ones. I hope I am just too sensitive myself and start thinking of stupid things. But sometimes I really hope you or maybe someone could tell me the truth. I heard of too many lies, and I started to hate that. So don’t make me hate you too, I won’t wish to, never…

I browse through some blogs, reading something that happened to those I care. But coincidently I read through something that I should not. After reading it, I really feel like my heart has torn into pieces. I regretted for reading it, how’d I wish to forget those words that hurt me more than ever. Due to my curiosity, I found out something that I don’t wish to know. I wonder if I don’t know about it forever, is it we will be happy together? Even if I know about it, will it affect the slightest thing? Finally I realised that my 信心 towards myself and you is actually not that high after all.

First love is really that important ma? Keeping in the memory is a good thing but thinking of it most of the time is still a good thing ma? If you really can 放得下, I don’t think such things will still happen. Perhaps to me being bestie is not that way ba, well I am too tired to think of so many things liao. Scold me if you really think that I am too sensitive, I deserve it. I shall let everything sleep before things get worse. Or maybe I shall let go too?


Saturday, December 22, 2007


Evergreen boughs that fill our homes
With fragrant Christmas scents,
Hearts filled with the loving glow
That Christmas represents;

Christmas cookies, turkeys stuffed,
Festive holly berry,
Little faces bright with joy,
Loved ones being merry;

Parties, songs, beribboned gifts,
Silver bells that tinkle,
Christmas trees and ornaments,
Colorful lights that twinkle;

Relatives waiting with open arms
To smile and hug and kiss us;
These are some of the special joys
That come along with Christmas.

[[[hoping that this Christmas of this year will be much better than last year]]]

Sunday, December 16, 2007

Waktu yang terhenti…berdetik kembali…

Waktu yang terhenti…berdetik kembali…

Dia termenung di jendela biliknya tanpa menyedari masa pantas berputar. Cuaca mula bertukar warna namun kegelisahan masih kuat merantai tangkai hatinya. Memang sukar baginya untuk menerima sesuatu yang belum pasti miliknya. Ingin diluahkan rasa hatinya namun tiada kata-kata yang terkeluar. Fikirannya yang tidak menentu menjadi batu penghalang untuknya berterus-terang. Akhirnya, segalanya dipendam sendiri dalam pelbagai perasaan yang bercampur baur. Sungguhpun wujudnya kasih yang bercambah subur bersama memori indah yang sukar digambarkan dengan kata-kata, namun segalanya harus berakhir setelah sedar daripada mimpi yang kian melesap.

Usahlah hatimu tersayat pedih mengenangkan kemungkinan yang bakal terjadi. Air mata yang mengalir lesu membasahi pipi gebumu sememangnya tidak berbaloi. Pernahkah mu tanyakan dirimu mengapa senyuman tidak mampu terukir sedangkan perasaan sedih tidak lagi menyelubungi hatimu? Usahlah dibaja benih kasih dengan harapan ia subur segar untuk menniti hari bahagia. Sebenarnya hidup tidak selalunya indah, kadang-kala mu akan diduga. Ketika itu mu memerlukan ketenangan untuk membuat keputusan. Mungkin laut serasi denganmu untuk mencari kedamaian dalam hati yang terguris ini.

Dapatkah segala kekeruhan ini dijernihkan dengan kematangan akal dan fikiran? Keluhan demi keluhan dilepaskan tetapi tiada satu pun yang dapat menenangkan hati dan perasaannya. Barangkali dia tidak larat lagi berfikiran matang buat saat ini. Dia pasrah. Walaubagaimanapun tidak lama lagi, segalanya ajan pulih seperti hari-hari kelmarin yang biasa dilalui. Tanpa kewujudannya, barangkali hidup dapat menjadi ceria dan berwarna-warni semula. Walau apa jua perubahan rentak hidupmu kelak, mu harus senantiasa tabah menghadapinya.

Thursday, November 15, 2007


Lord, protect our doubts, because Doubt is a way of praying. It is Doubt that makes us grow because it forces us to look fearlessly at he many answers that exist to one question. And in order for this to be possible…

Lord, protect our decisions, because making Decisions is a way of praying. Give us the courage, after our doubts, to be able to choose between one road and another. May our YES always be a YES, and our NO always be a NO. Once we have chosen our road, may we never look back nor allow our soul to be eaten away by remorse. And in order for this to be possible…

Lord, protect our actions, because Action is a way or praying. May our daily bread be the result of the very best that we carry within us. May we, through work and Action, share a little of the love we receive. And in order for this to be possible…

Lord, protect our dreams, because to Dreams is a way of praying. Make sure that regardless of our age or our circumstances, we are capable of keeping alight in our heart the sacred flame of hope and perseverance. And in order for this to be possible…

Lord, give us enthusiasm, because Enthusiasm is a way of praying. It is what binds us to the Heavens and to the Earth, to grown-ups, and to children, it is what tells us that our desires are important and deserve our best efforts. It is Enthusiasm that reaffirms to us that everything is possible, as long as we are totally committed to what we are doing. And in order for this to be possible…

Lord, protect us, because life is the only way we have of making manifest Your miracle. May the Earth continues to transform seeds into wheat, may we continue to transmute wheat into bread. And this is only possible if we have love. Therefore, do not leave us in solitude. Always give us Your company, and the company of men and women who have doubts, who act and dream and feel enthusiasm, and who live each day as if it were totally dedicated to Your glory.


Sunday, October 14, 2007

Home oR woRk?

Aikz..PMR had finally over, and many of my friends are planning to get a work instead of staying at home. And I have thought of this brilliant idea too, I'd wish to work too..coz lately I think I have spent a lot for shopping and hanging out with friends. I really don't know how could I stand till next year if this continues.. >.< I think I really need a job --- earn some money for myself to spend. But too bad, they will never allow me to work at this age..aiks, I hate staying at home. I hate waking up early, doing nothing but to be scolded. I hate being scolded for small small thing or even nothing. I hate listening to all those murmurings all day. I hate all these. I need life, I need him.


Thursday, October 11, 2007

=.=" 很无聊

This 28-July case had actually passed long ago. But he still wanna mention it, and he is trying to create lots of rumours about it. He said that he wanna do something 'bad' to me on my birthday, isn't this an irresponsible action of one? He is trying to make us scared and he does so many things just to get our attention. And I have once advised him, "If you could stop all these, then we could still be friends". Damn'it, and his friend spreads rumour that I wanna be his friend so much. Is his friend actually helping us or trying to make things worse? I don't care everything between them, but please stop making such nonsense anymore. I don't wish to hear anything about this, I am sick of it, and I hate it..yea very much. Sometimes I just think that they both have some kinds of problems, yea mentally.. They have lack of friends, yea I understand, and try to get people's attention. But no, that's not a good way of making friends, and they both will just only make people hate them even more. I understand that they are sensitive people, so I dare not to give comments on whatever they do. But I do hope that they could do something more meaningful, and not such stupid thing. My birthday? It's supposed to be a happy day right?and he is trying to make stuff on that day? Well, anyway they won't see me on that day, never anymore...

Friday, August 10, 2007

“Kejadian Ngeri”
30 July 2007

Yesterday (30 July 2007), something terribly disgusting had happened in my life. During recess time, someone put a dead gold fish into my bag and this caused my whole bag and stuff stink. The smell was terribly bad but I still did not know there was such a dead fish in my bag until I opened it after recess. I was shocked to see the big (around 10cm) gold fish in my bag and the fish had only one eye with its rotten stomach. I screamed and threw the bag onto the floor. This scared my classmates too and many of them helped to see what happened. They were also shocked to see that stinko in the bag and they helped to clean my bag and threw away that fish. I was shocked til I cried. I felt disgusted too when I saw it. Although I told the discipline teacher, but she said that she could not do anything because I was not physically hurt and I did not know who was the one who put it into my bag. Soon, the Moral exam started and I went back to class to sit for the exam.

As soon as I finished the exam, I went out to investigate bout this case. I found out that the dead gold fish came from the library because the fish had just died and had been taken out from the aquarium by Mr. X. I suspected this Mr. X, hence I asked him what actually happened but he created stories to protect himself. However after investigating over and over, again and again, the person who did this was really Mr. X. Of course I did not tell him that I know that it was him who did all these because I knew that surely he won’t admit it. There is nobody who will admit that he/she did something wrong.

This news spread and spread until the afternoon session pupils also know bout this. And on 31 July 2007 (the next day after this case happened), this Mr. X scolded my friends for spreading rumours that he was the one who put the dead fish into my bag. However, it wasn’t my friends who spread it but he himself told his own friend that he did it and of course his friend told everyone =.=”

Until now, whether this Mr. X is really the one who did this or not, or whether he wanna admit what he had done or not, I don’t wish to bother about this case anymore. And I hope that everyone could let this case sleeps and never mention it anymore. I don’t wish to hear any rumour saying bout this case or Mr. X anymore. Many people told me to take revenge or at least something to punish him but I won’t. We don’t need to say or point out whoever done this because there was a Malay saying that “Siapa yang termakan cili akan terasa pedasnya”. I believe that God will punish this person in his wise way and we, human shall believe in God and we should also mind our own business.
Hari Kokurikulum
28 Julai 2007

Rasanya, hari koko tahun ini adalah lebih awal berbanding dengan tahun lepas iaitu pada 9 Sep 2006. Namun, segala aktiviti adalah berlainan berbanding dengan tahun lalu. Bagi saya pula, saya terpaksa membuka gerai ‘Little Rojak Hut’ untuk projek Pendidikan Sivik bersama ahli-ahli kumpulan yang lain. Pada tahun lepas, saya telah bersuka ria dan bermain sepanjang hari koko dilaksanakan. Saya dapat menangkap ikan bersamanya dan memperoleh sedikit sebanyak keseronokan serta kenangan manis bersamanya. Tetapi pada tahun ini pula saya perlu menjaga gerai, membuat rojak =.=” dan membuat promosi gerai. Saya tidak dapat lagi bermain sepanjang hari dan tidak dapat menghabiskan masa bersama ‘dia’. Dia telah meninggalkan sekolah dan tidak lagi akan pulang untuk sebarang aktiviti sekolah. Barangkali dia agak sibuk dengan kerja-kerjanya. Namun, saya terserempak dengan kawannya dan dia bertanyakan saya tentang hal-hal ‘dia’. Ketika kawan tersebut bertanya, “Bagaimana dengan ‘dia’ sekarang? Dengar kata dia telah melanjutkan pelajaran di XXX ye?” Pada masa tersebut, saya berasa agak hairan kerana kini saya sememangnya tidaklah masih rapat dengannya. Saya cuma mampu tersenyum dan tidak menjawab apa-apa. Dalam hatiku terbisik, segala yang telah berlalu biarlah berlalu, usahlah memikirkan kenangan yang telah dialami bersamanya. Asalkan kami masih berkawan, segalanya telah menjadi lebih baik daripada asal.

Friday, May 25, 2007

PhOtOgRaPhY sEssiOn

We had our photography session on the 23rd and 24th May 2007. As one of the photography club member, I was there to help them out to arrange the students, chairs and so on. It was tiring but fun, coz’ I got to know more people and work with them together there. All class students, clubs and societies members came down to take pictures. The way they pose was totally crazy during the ‘free-pose’ session =.=” [including me..LoLz] Unimaginably, I took 9 pictures!!~~~ 1st, class photo [3G photo with ‘Double A’]. 2nd, Librarian Board [LiB rOx]. 3rd, Kelab Landskap [pura-pura jadi ahli kerana ahli tidak cukup]. 4th, Computer Club [joined them blindly too coz’ not enough member]. 5th, Science and Mathematics Club. 6th PBSM. 7th, Bendahara [Yellow is the best >.<] 8th, Photography Club. And the last one is a candid photo of photography club members. I can’t imagine how would I look in the 2007 school magazine =.=” And I wonder how much would I spend just to buy all the photos with my face in it. Owh…maybe 30 bucks or 40 bucks? T_T pk liaoz…>.<

Kaka…anyway it was an interesting experience, as it was the first time I joined this photography session. I will be looking forward to it next year too ^.^v

Monday, April 30, 2007

LiFe's JouRney

I walked along the road of life,
Not on smiles,
Not on tears,
But on the sheer strength,
Of mine and yours.

I walked along the road of life,
Not for the glory,
Not for an apology,
But on the shattered love,
Of our past.

I walked along the road of life,
Not for the moon glimmer,
Not for knowing deeper,
But on the good hopes and wishes,
Of true friends and soulmates.

I walked along the road of life,
A road paved with sweet memories,
A road paved with unconditional love,
A road paved with tender love and care.

I turned back to see what had I left behind,
I found many things that I had missed,
I wish to have a great walk of life,
From now and then.


Thursday, April 19, 2007

Aww...the diagnostic exam had just ended and unpredictably the result is counted as the mid-year exam result which the parents have had to come to school to collect the report card and see this result - - OmG and my result this time isn't good liaoz (although it is still slightly betetr than others somehow).. >.<" After this exam, it's time to finish up the projects that I dumped aside for quite some time as if they were given to us ages ago - - Exams and projects fill every second of my life. Life is getting more boring and annoying, maybe because it is without his existence? LoLz -_-" Unbelievably too, I can't have that much fun without him. I can't imagine it myself, coz' I always think that I can live without anyone. Maybe I was really used to have him by my side to accompany me most of the time. [Well, no point of praising him so much =X, or else he might get too proud of himself] LoLz >.<"

Besides exams and projects, there is also librarian job which I started to hate it from now on. Guess why? The day I duty really sucks, for God's sake. I wish my duty day will be as fun as others which the Ketua Harian no need to get furious of their 'anak buah'. I wonder why people who duty on my day are so lazy to do work, maybe it's most of them are already Form5 and they need to take a rest? Every week, the same person will be doing the same old job without any change. And the same person is always me.

I also don't wish to bother that much, hence I kept quiet most of the time, pretending that they totally don't exist. But when it comes to write report of the day, should I be honest or write nice good thing about them everytime? Yes, it might be not fair to both parties but do I really need to be that responsible when working with such people? I don't think I need to. Never. >.<"

I hate staying back just to work unhappily with people I dislike. If I have the right to choose, I prefer crazy yet hardworking people to work with me. We could finsih up the work and yet could enjoy ourselves. I love Wednesdays, but not Tuesdays. Never. >.<"

I wish the teacher could change the timetable, I wish to shift to Wednesdays, I wish to stop being a librarian. I wish to have all my wishes granted.

It makes sense...

Please spend 1 minute to read this, it's very meaningful. When the bus come, you look at it and you said to yourself, "eeee... so full...cannot sit down one". So you said to yourself, "I'll wait for the next one." so you let the bus go and waited for the second bus. Then the second bus came, you looked at it and you said, "eeee...this bus so old...surely very uncomfortable one." So you let the bus go and decided to wait for the next bus. After a while, another bus came. It's not crowded and not old but you said, "eeee... no air-con one...and the weather is so warm, better wait for the next one." So again you let the bus go and decided to wait for the next bus. Then the sky started to get dark as it is getting late. You panicked and jump on to the next on coming bus. It is not until much later that you found out that you had boarded on to the wrong bus! So you wasted your time and money waiting for what you want! Even if an aircon bus came, can you ensure that the aircon bus won't break down or will the aircon be too cold for you? So people...(mostly girls but guys too!) want to make sure that what you want is not wrong. But it wouldn't hurt to give other people a chance, right? If you found that the "bus" doesn't suit, you just press the red button and get off the bus! But wait...I am sure all of you have this experienced before. You saw a bus is coming (the bus you want of course) you flagged it and the driver acted blur by pretending not seeing you and zoomed pass you! The bottom line of being loved is like waiting for a bus and whether you want to get on the bus and give the bus a chance depends totally on you and walking alone is just like being out of love. If you love someone set him/her free. If he/she comes back to you, you know they're yours. If they don't then it was never meant to be. Remember to always say what you mean. If you love someone, tell. Don't be afraid to express yourself. Reach out and tell someone what they mean to you. Because when you decide that it is the right time, it might be too late. Seize the day. Never have regrets. The difference between doing all that you can or having regrets which may stay with you forever. Friendship is never an accident. It is always the result of high intentions, sincere effort, intelligent direction and skilful execution. It represents the wise choice of many alternatives. And remember…"As love returns to me, As I return to you, As love returns to us. I guess this makes a lot of sense.

Wednesday, March 7, 2007


Sometimes in life, you find a special friend.
Someone who changes your life just by being part of it.
Someone who makes you laugh until you can't stop.
Someone who makes you believe that there is really a good power in the world.
Someone who convinces you that there is really an unlocked door just waiting for you to open it. This is forever friendship.

When you're down and the world seems dark and empty, your forever friend lifts you up in spirit and makes that dark and empty world suddenly seem bright and full.
Your forever friend gets you through the hard times, the sad times and the confused times.
If you turn and walk away, your forever friend follows.
If you lose your way, your forever friend guides you and cheers you on.
Your forever friend hold your hand and tells you that everything is going to be okay.
And if you find such a friend, you feel happy and complete because you need not worry.
You have a forever friend, and forever has no end.

Sunday, February 25, 2007


It is a nice celebration of Chinese New Year...
On the first day of CNY, my family and I went to god-uncle's house [as usual, it is a tradition since ages ago] there, one word to describe all- boring. However, it is nice to meet someone I seldom meet and catch up with their life.

On the second day, we went back to kampung in Bentong, Pahang and meet up with all my father side relatives. At there, I saw so many cousins who I had not meet for a year. Yah, like me, everyone had grown up XD. Everyone was busy chatting around and catching up with each other. Since I was the smallest one there, I could not have lots fo chance to chat with others lor, plus I don't really know them = = And of course we went to the restaurant and ate together. My sis and I also snapped lots of pictures there [kampung scenery is much nicer than the city one]

On the third day, me, sis, mum and aunt went to Mid Valley. The decorations there are quite nice and we snapped lots of photos too. We had our lunch at Sushi King, and I ordered all my favourites. Soon, we watched the movie 'The Lady Iron Chef', starring Charmaine Sheh, Hacken Lee and some other famous Hong Kong artist. It was quite funny- my sis and I laughed lots- but don't know why my mum and aunt don't seem to like that movie... Unfortunately, my aunt lost her specs in the cinema- don't know why she was so careless.

On the fourth day, we went to the immigration centre to renew our passports. It was so crowded and full of 'thieves-like people'. We queued for an hour to get the number but the officer askes us to photostat our My-Card first and re-queue. I was like, 'OmG, wth, is this their system of working?'. Then when we took the passport photo, the man who in charge to snap our picture was damn ham sap = = When adjusting the position of our seats, he purposely touched people's waist and butt [especially young girls, like me and my sis =X]
So my advice is, 'Dont ever go to the immigration centre of Shah Alam, Kompleks PKNS'

On the fifth day, I went to Vivian's house then Ken Meng's, then Merv's and Soon's. I had collected lots of ang pow and had great fun there. Also, I took this opportunity to snap picts with my besties and friends. And of course I get to meet 'him' lor and snapped two-person photo with him, though it was not that nice.

On the sixth day, I went to Carmen's house and Hsiang's. I also met Carmen's lil' bro and played with him. He was quite cute but a bit naughty. Her pretty mum oredered us some pizza and chicken wings [satisfied lunch]. I had totally forgotten the worries I had at home coz' on that day my parents were quarrelling like hell. Then at Hsiang's there, again I met 'him'. But what I could see is that he was more interested towards my friends [maybe coz' her beauty on that day =X]

On the seventh day, I went for tuition T_T pitiful coz' had to go for tuition even on CNY. Nothing special happened there, and at last on the eighth day [today] it was a miracle that I could online and blog here coz' last few days my monitor was not functioning, but don't know why when I turn it on today, it works... What a relaxing day to do blogging here...

Tomorrow will be a schooling day more CNY mood...

-The End-

Sunday, January 14, 2007



This is a true issue about snatch thefts…

Yesterday, it was a Saturday. I was going home from Plaza Rakyat LRT station. So while waiting the train, I took out my handphone to text my dad to ask him to fetch me at Sri Petaling LRT station later. I think someone is observing me for quite a long while. Then when the train reached, there were many people. And we just rushed into the train. I was standing near the door. Then there was a middle-age Malay man wearing orange-yellow t-shirt walked past me, and took my phone. I wanted to chase him but too bad right after he left the train, the door closed quickly. I guessed this is what they call ‘professional’ =.=”

I think this kind of news happened everyday everywhere. I hope everyone reading this will be more careful whenever you are at LRT station or any public place. Don’t think that it is safe when there are many people around, sometimes it might be dangerous too. >.< just don’t wish that you guys will be like me. ‘Becareful’ is always the word.


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